My ideal Lover

Before mating with him.. I've enumerated out the requirement
Knowledgeable, know everything better than I am, cleverer than I am, better command of english than I am..

But seems I am not qualified to meet a perfect one. Because I am not perfect at all, how can I expect i have a perfect bf right? Else, everyday i lost my confidence in front of him too, and he would say i am not matching him someday.. why should I suffer myself, right?

So, I met my dear today..
He is ain't perfect at all.. same with me.. he is not so good at direction and geography
he is not concern abt politic.. missed twice to vote for election
He is not good in english conversation
He only know to say yes in front of my parent..

Love ain't blind.. at least i think i was not blind.. I choose to use a scope to enlarge his shortcoming.. And also mine...
and I found.. because i ain't perfect and he is not too..

-ve + -ve = +ve?? I hope so..

But.. he loves me, dote on me, take care of me every weekend we meet and during the trip
His pay is higher than I am, he is better in math than I am, he has healthy hobby,
he is taller than I am.
I dunno how should I measure and wonder how am i so sure.. nth will change?

Made a pizza today~

A Successful 1..hihi

My friends

I am not sure what's the definition of friends. Just realise they are getting lesser and lesser after graduated.
I am not kind of people who likes to socialize much especially if it was related to money..
so I guess I am getting unknown among the old friends :)

I admit I am that kind of ppl who can get along well with most of the ppl. But when come further.. they will find some obstacles if intended to invite me for some activities.. well, I am not good at games, jokes etc.. don't you feel bored to ask me out? I believe so..

Who can be my good friends, they are the ppl I am really treasured/cherish about. They are the ppl enlighting my life and unselfish to share.

When come back to the purpose of life: Yet, i am not aiming to become popular.. so doesn't matter how ppl look at me..

SO what am I grumbling about today? Beat me... :)

临睡前

总觉得如果没把今年的愿望写出来，今晚就睡不着觉了。。
呵呵。。new year new hopes..

今年是鼠年，本小姐的年。透漏年龄的秘密了。。也是据这些明理学者，是犯太岁的年份
但是会有福星贵人帮助我的事业。。努力之后，必有回报。。。

一直以来，身边都有好多贵人。。
小学时，成绩/长相不怎么样，老师却发掘我的声线适合讲故事，演讲，主持。。因此我才没白白的浪费我的潜能。。因此也得到不少宠爱与偏袒。。

中学时，成绩也不怎么样，才华也没被肯定。。长期的忽略。。让我在中二时发奋图强。。终于我拿到了第一个第一名。。
觉得不足够，我又得到贵人的帮助。。
加入学记，认识了很多人，看清楚现实。。我才知道自己有多不足
人外有人，天外有天。。没去争取机会又怎能让别人瞧见我的天分。。
于是，贵人有拉我一把，加入了辩论社
阴差阳错，又在没人选的情况下带队，而且还拿了奖杯回来。。。

大学里，成绩还是不怎样，
同学们都是贵人，让我了解读书的重要。。毫不自私的一起研究功课。。认识了毫无心机的同学们。
于是，在他们的支持下，又当上了fac queen, 争取到了course representative。。
顺顺利利毕业。。supervisor教了我很多东西，最后也拿到best presenter。之后，进入一间非常好的公司。

回首过去，我可以大声地说，我没有遗憾。。可是十年后的今天呢？？

老板们都是贵人。他们提拔我。。而我也非常担心我的怠惰会辜负了他们的期望。。在现实社会，一样的，人外还是有很多人（中国人，新加坡人，红毛人，泰国人。。。），而且一个个都有机会取代我。

我一向来都知道。。要做什么事都要begin with the end in mind。。我也不害羞得去争取我要的一切
记得我多么渴望参加诗歌朗诵比赛。。诗也找好好了，还附上汉语拼音。。而且，还与所有的候选人分享。。当我知道老师不选我时。。我难过极了。。埋怨老师不公平，在学校痛哭了一场。。结果，那位同学虽然长得漂亮，声音比我的好听，却也是输了比赛。。据说，是因为准备不足。。毫不隐瞒地，我觉得很痛快。。这应验了不是与生俱来的天分可以否定一切的努力。。

曾几何时，我已经忘了自己有那种进取心，羞耻感了呢？我渴望赢的欲望好像里我越来越远了。
我的优越感，自信。。都不知道藏到哪里去了。。会哭，是因为努力过。。即使失败了也不后悔。。。怕头怕尾，什么事都做不成，十年后的今天，我铁定后悔。。。

看看周围结婚了的同事。。天天都是孩子经，烦恼屋子/装修费，度蜜月的地点=费用。。贫贱夫妻白事唉。。我真的不想跟他们一样。。我希望我至少会是个例外。。

下定决心。。今年这个鼠年，
我要：
1）每一天，一个小时读英文杂志。。加强英文，增广见闻
2）跟多一些非华族的朋友交谈。。加强英文会话
3）事事关心，时时注意。。把握机会，冲啊！
4）每天11点一定要睡觉。。美颜
5）有心机。。必要时要带不同面具。。begin with the end in mind
6）不辞下问。。被笑才能激发想要胜利的心理
7）保持与同事/朋友友好的关系。。贵人处处，然他们喜欢自己。。微笑哦
8）专心专一。。不要把精神浪费在没有结果/会变质的东西上

subjected to update day to day..
加油哦！

CNY gathering..Love u frens!

It has been a long time, I never update the blog.

New year new hopes, new updates.. just finish my dinner gathering.

It was very warming together with the old schoolmates... Leeting, siangling, minghsian, xianli, weiyan, chunpei and jinghao..

It costs us about Rm47 per pax. It was reasonable and the dishes were unique and ingredients were fresh especially.. sashimi.. m98 for a plate with different kind of fishes.. I dunno what kind of fish were on the plate.. hehe..worried about getting stomachache tomorrow... :)

Leeting is really knowledgeable as she has very strong memory and received a lot of information. She was so curious about what she was eating. On the contrary, I was like not curious at all, eating without too much of concern.. This is something I need to improve myself, as i am so young, I should be observing and open my eyes for more.... STOP being ignorance.. I am not young anymore..

Fires up! Yzene!

Bad hair day

Finally i went to perm my hair...
The hair stylist promised me to curl my hair naturally...
end up....the curl portion is indeed curly..
I can't even adapt my new look..
so to my family members.. my bro's comment more even hurt me..
auntie's hair! my mum's keep nagging why am i never make clear that what kind of hair style i prefer.. I did.. In fact, I am much worrier than others..
My money, my hair, my look.. All belong to me..
i feel so bad...
Now how i understand the feeling of $$ burnt..
i have pretty much of event ahead..
hopefully after i shampoo my haird the curl condition could improve..
I don't dare to go out now..
Can i work from home on Monday???

Super Duper Hot

天气好热，好热
突然好怀念之前没太阳的日子。。。
全身软绵绵的。。因为水分一直蒸发，汗一直地流。。
我快要融化了~~~~
救我~~

我是最佳女猪脚

I was so surprised...It is true..
Heard you are together with the most beautiful & sexiest lady in the office(in my and most of the men in office's ranking).
She is a capable planner, dress well, pretty. Recently just broke up with her ex
Is she the one you always look for?
I am giving you my best wishes sincerely although i never tell you personally.
I start wondering how you look on me last time before you tagged with her? I am not belittle myself.
I just curious why last time was me.... i start doubt were you treat every girl that good?

When i was told by others about your good news. I was a bit shocked that i was not the earliest batch to share it with you... Perhaps i was too busy or you are too awkward?
Actually i can feel the chemistry between both of you..
I wonder do i care about it?
At that moment, i was the best actress. I pretend like nothing happen...
The worst is i knew the guy who exposed this news to me know everything about you & me..
I said something bad about you.. sorry i don't mean it... I just too nervous...
I just too scared that the guy found something from my expression...
You know I like to pretend as strong lady rite?

I still keep the gift you gave me on last valentine day. The flower and a nice handicraft made by yourself.
You know I am easily get touched. The handicraft is still on my desk with your name removed.
I wonder how you feel when you know your name was not there.
You know I really like that handicraft rather than the flower.
However I have to keep this secret between us.
For your and my own good.
My decision is right.
And Finally you get the ONE!!

I wonder should i scrap it.. but i just can't bear to throw it away.
I don't dare to say the past memory with your admiration will be my sweet memory
But i admit, this is not a bad with someone like you to show me your concern especially when i am in bad mood.

Don't worry, my friend. I never blame U..
So don't avoid to look into my eyes when talking..
My eyes are small :) & friendly..
I give you my best wishes..
I pretty sure you will be happier with her~